I Miss The Old Him

 

  We had a fairy-tale beginning, almost. Things were perfect back then. There was love, there was commitment, and there was trust. Our relationship was nearly perfect in all means. He used to be concerned about me, gave importance to whatever I said. He made me feel like an essential part of his life. Things were great. And I only anticipated that they would get better with time. I overlooked the darker side.
  But as time passed, he seemed to have changed. He is now a very different version of what he earlier was. He is in no way similar to the guy that I fell for. He is no more the same person. His priorities seem to have changed as well. We argue more and talk less. On some days, I feel that I am being taken for granted. While on others, I wonder if he has lost interest in me. I cannot prevent these baseless thoughts from crowding my mind. This behavior of his makes me derive all sorts of conclusions about the future of our relationship. Whenever I try and bring up this topic, he casually ignores the topic and walks away. Is he bored? Is there nothing left in this relationship? Has the love faded away? 
  There are so many questions and not many answers. I would do all that it takes to set things right, provided he wants me to. I want to revive the lost love yet again. I wish to go back to those good old days when all was well. When all that mattered was US. 

As soon as you get too comfortable, that's when things fall apart.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

  

  Amidst all these young relationships, the concept of true, undying love has ceased to exist. There could be a multiple reasons to it. Are we too immature to know the true worth of relationships? Do we get bored of dating the same person? Are we yet to understand the concept of being with each other through thick and thin? Or probably, when we know we are loved by someone, we take that person for granted. On the other side of this change, lies the victim. The person who gives all that he/she has to revive the relationship. A person who has spent hours wondering what went wrong. 
  If you have even the tiniest of doubts about anything in young relationship, talk it out. For the suspense kills the other person. If you say you want to be with someone, stick to it. You may think your girl is over-reacting, but this isn't the actual picture. She can sense that the relationship is degrading, and she is concerned. She gave all her time and emotions to this commitment because she always thought that it would last. Explain your reasons to her, tell her what actually went wrong and you will see how she sets things right at once. Realize what you have before it slips away from your hands.

Stop pretending that things are more complicated than they are! You either love someone or you don’t, so stop hanging on to them.

Nightmares of Losing You

He occupies such a prominent place in my life. Now that he has been with me since so long, I kind of cannot imagine life without him. I am extremely dependent on him. My life revolves around him. I love to be with him always. Together we are a perfect couple. The mere thought of having a future with him is overwhelming. I want things to be this way forever, and change only to get better with time. There are days when I make plans about our future, fantasies that take me to a heavenly place. He is my obsession.
But then there are these real bad days when all those negative thoughts creep into my mind. On such days, I cannot stop myself from thinking about the worst possible outcomes of this relationship. The clear image of the future begins to blur. I think of ways of making him stay if he ever decides to leave. The very thought of which scares me. Those negative images are somewhere buried deep down in my mind and crop up on such days, making them all the more miserable. I try my best to ignore them, but these thoughts are involuntary. Maybe they are God's own way of telling me how much I love him. 

My only nightmare is waking up in a world where you aren't mine.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

When in a relationship, people go through all sorts of mixed emotions. These emotions may be good or bad. The good ones are heavenly, but it is the negative ones that are difficult to tackle. There is a constant fear of any casual argument turning into a serious one. 'What if he gets bored and walks out of our relationship? What if he says that he doesn't want me anymore? What if he finds someone better?' These are a few of the many conclusions we derive. These are emotions which everyone in a relationship faces. Trust me; you aren't the only one out there.
These are all phases. Phases that are a part and parcel of relationships. Every relationship goes through bad times. Such situations are nothing but a trial period of your relationship. This involves insecurity, jealously, depression and other cynical emotions. The only cure is trust. You have to trust your relationship, trust your partner and most importantly, trust this love which holds you together. You should be sure of your feelings for him. If all this is done, other things would hardly be a problem then.

You will always be afraid to lose someone, afraid they may find someone better than you. You just can’t help that. It just happens as soon as you start to get too attached to someone. You don’t want them out of your life. Ever.