The Haunting Past

It was as if we were always meant to be together. When I met him, I realized how it feels to be with that special someone. He made me realize the worth of love. Life with him was perfect. We had a clear picture of our future right in front of our eyes. I started thinking that life was perfect. I was sure that our relationship was flawless. We decided that now that we were so sure of our relationship, there should be no secrets between us. This was a turning point in our relationship. The 'No Secrets' deal revealed certain things about his past which I was earlier unaware of.

This was not a very pleasant experience. He had a hell of a past. I never knew. I always thought that as long as our future was clear, knowing the past was of no use. It was only when things were presented in front of me, that I realized the actual situation. Although I never show it, his past haunts me till date. It makes me insecure. I became aware of the actual reason of his over-protective behavior. His past had shattered him, but at the same time it had hardened him from the inside. It is kind of hard to get these images from his past out of my mind. I still love him the way I used to. But there are times when I regret knowing about his past. 

We both deny it, but if we look close into each other’s eyes, we know our love is different. We know we have a future full of feelings that were left behind by us in our past.

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All of us have our own story, our own experiences and our own past. Some hold good records, while for others it was a new lesson to learn. For others, our past is just a story like that of a daily soap. There are a very few people who are actually affected by our past. They are the people who are with us in our present. Think of it in the other way, if you come to know about the not-so-likable past of your partner. What would be your reaction? What if this revelation intensely affects you at an emotional level? What if it makes you question the very existence of your relationship? 

It leaves you with not many options. Option one, you can ignore your partner's past and move on with the relationship. After all, if the present is satisfying, you can easily overlook the past. Option two, understand your partner's feelings and instead of holding him responsible, sympathize with them. It takes a strong emotional resolve to do so. Promise them that you will never let them go through the same ever again. The last and the most selfish option, sacrifice your present for the sake of your partner's past. Walk away and leave them alone to face the same emotional turmoil again. My personal advice to you is, choose from the first two. Completely ignore the last one. 

You never realize what kind of love you have, until you almost walk away from it and come back to find that it’s may be way too late.